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2012-05-25T15:48:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow may, or may not come.
Because two days later, tomorrow will be yesterday.
So cherish today.
For tomorrow, you may have crossed the line.

-Low Kay Hwa-

2009-09-18T17:20:00.001+08:00

cause everything falls apart today
i forgot how to pick myself up again by night.

2009-09-15T21:58:00.002+08:00

this space has rotted for quite a long time
sorry
add me in lj okay
lifelovemisery@lj
anw ya
actually i haven't met up so many good friends
for a very long long time
see lah i taking things for granted
i need to stop mingling w outside friends
i srsly need alot of time for school one
meet up up or lunch or something
message me okay
baibai

ps : i miss sophia fonda and raghini alot ):

2009-09-04T09:33:00.000+08:00

sorry for the rotting-ness
updated more in lj
but i think i will be moving into the private side of life.
so ya
byebye

2009-08-09T12:55:00.000+08:00

hai,
i hate the way im sitting in class
im somehow surrounded by bitches
people who call others two faced
when they forget in reality
that they are one
fucktards
want me to say in your faces right
i will,
when time come
im not

stop and see

2009-08-08T09:23:00.001+08:00

hai.
i feel so irritated
why do people have to be so sensitive
i just don't get it
i only can open up when i want to
certain people
not to like everyone
cause fristly i don't wan people to smypathise me
secondly i don't wan t people to know what im am going thru
thirdly i don't really like taking advices
unless i ask.
let me be on my own accord
how would ou like
if i were to say
a final goodbye?
that's how i feel

2009-07-31T21:43:00.000+08:00

ni hao!
lol sorry for not updating
i prefer lj cause more private
then some slut/dog can't see -.-
do what ever you one
dare you make problem
you will regret for life.
try me ah
slut.
whatever lah
anw byebye (:
add me in lj if you wna read
www.bemy-retrometro.livejournal.com

2009-07-16T19:45:00.001+08:00

yesterday was prolly the worst day
sorry yapzy
sorry lyzel
sorry liyan
sorry gloria,shar,siv
guess everyone is getting better now

siv is changing for the better (Y)
she follows me where i ask her go
haha i and shar keep bully her alot
sorry siv ):
i guess you have a lot of problems now
so cheer up okeh
me luv you
me no more hate you

liyan you also cheer up okeh
don't care about people
who think you lie
its hurtful i know
bu after you let go it hell lot eaisier okeh
luvluv

hais anw
went boonkeng yesterday
to cry w bestfreind
h2h talk was productive
off-ed my phone
cause no mood to talk to anyone
except bestfriend
aftermath
went see my baby boy ( aunt's baby)
he is soooo fucking cute
hehe headed home
sms liyan gloria daniel and tisha only
sorry for who msg me and never reply
mood damn unstable
was pissed w mum cause she slap me
i hate people hitting me
swear if it wasn't my mum
i'll hit you back
pissed so went to sleep on the floor with my thinnest blanket
thought about things and cry again
after wake up felt better
good (:

today wasn't boring as expected
pe = volleyball fun
tamil = sleeping
chem= productive
math = concentrated biut abit distracted
eng= helping the nation = slacking time

macs-ed with shar lyzel
siv didn't come ):
meet li yan there
ate, fun , laughed so hard
heartland-ed
got stomach ache
stay in the toilet abit long
sorry ):
mac-es again
gloria came
laughed very hard again
haha then headed home with gloria
wanted to play maple with tisha
but mum deleted ):
hais nvm hor
concentrate more on studies (:
buh bye
gna help my brother on dnt

2009-07-09T14:22:00.002+08:00

sorry yapzy, cheng and sharshar for ps-ing you
for the second time
i don't really know what im doing at time
like some sot case
polyclinic-ed with yanyan
what we do there
we sleep while waiting
damn long okeh
that doc of mine
thought i everytime pon = go poly take mc
excuse me money not from tree okeh
she even advised me not to abuse ths system
-.-
mrt-ed back home
my pinafore's getting longer and longer
noe like can sweep floor alrd
zi angry
okeh byebye
off to spent some quality time on hw

2009-07-08T08:48:00.003+08:00

fucking dissapointed
3 bars of family pack down my throat
sometimes i wonder why i do all these things
i think that pig of mine sleeping
oh no she just replied me
kkwch here i come
an did i tell you i ear unblock 'like sort
unblock then block then unblock then block-.-
but very long alrd eh
never block yet
hehe anw
i never go school today cause
me got appointment
mum lies to me always
hmph
anw HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACKY!
hope you have your memorable birthays
me and brother
susprised mum with a cake
and she don't wna wear the dress y'know ):
she say she will very young
haha kewtxz
okeh
e gna meet up w d
settle stuff
i can't bear
just guess i have to
its better like that
understand (:
smile okeh
love chewxz

2009-07-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

I feel like breaking down
Ifeel out of place?
Like somehow i just don't belong
And no one understands that
I feel like running away
I locked myself in my room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

I wanna be somebody else
Im sick of feeling so left out
Im so desperate to find something more
Before my life is over
Im stuck inside a world i hate
Im sick of everyone around
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside im bleeding

2009-07-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

TAGGED BY TISHA YAP

1. What color is your toothbrush?
Blue and White

2. Name one person who made you smile today?
that same person made me worried

3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
Talking with my lovelies

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
Go down to buy mum's birthday cake (:

5. What is your favorite candy bar?
Mars

6. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Haha wished too

7. What is the last thing you said aloud?
WHAT THE FUCK

8. What is your favorite ice-cream flavor?
ripple

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Water

10. Do you like your wallet?
No. i keep loosing a permanant one

11. What was the last thing you ate?
Baked rice from Pizza Hut.

12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
hehe yes. my sexy top shop geo runner

13. The last sporting event you watched?
volley ball

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
Half sweet and Half salty

15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to?
Darren lah

16. Ever go camping?
Ya school ones only

17. Do you take vitamins daily?
Sometimes

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?
Nope, me free thinke lais

19. Do you have a tan?
No. Im fucking black

20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza?
Depends lah

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
Sometimes

22. What did your last text message say?
Baby its okay ):

23. What are you doing tomorrow?
KKH>AIRPORT>AUNT'S PLACE

24. WHERE IS 24?
huh above?

25. Look to your left, what do you see?
my stool

26. What color is your watch?
i never wear la

27. What do you think of when you hear the word Australia?
My aunty and cousin and beer

28. What is your birthstone?
don' know le

29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
haha yes yes

30. What is your favourite number?
2

31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
Darren lah

32. Any plans today?
cry , celebrate mum's suprise party

33. How many states/provinces/countries have you lived in?
one country only ):

34. Biggest annoyance right now?
no one peaceful in the room with stuf running thru my head

35. Last song listened to?
radio/ mj's special

36. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
abit counted?

37. Do you have a maid service clean your house?
No. haha im the mai at times

38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
My black slippers

39. Are you jealous of anyone?
yes.

40. Is anyone jealous of you?
i don't think so

41. Do you love anyone?
yes, gloria,tisha,shar.yanyan.,sop,rag,fon i guess thats it mainly
and everyone i know

42. Do any of your friends have children?
haha no

43. What do you usually do during the day?
Travwl like a traveler

44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
nope.

45. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
ya

46. What color is your car?
red,black

47. Do you like cats?
no

48. Are you thinking about someone right now?
yes ):

49. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
ah whats that

50. How did you get your worst scars?
falling down lah

Tag 10 people:
Shar, Glor, Yanyan, Claudia, Rachel, Liyana, anyone lah

we'll make it thru

2009-07-07T20:42:00.003+08:00

yoz

bugis
national library
food junction
bugis street
illuma
amk hub
cathay

yesterday was indeed a long an memorable day worz
went to bugis bought top shop shorts
then national library-ed to do tamil project
but don't have enought info so do book review till yan yan came
pepper lunched with her
go meet her friends
then rushed amk to meet mum
caught transformer last minute
i likey i likey
i love bunny (:
homed 1 plus
slept 2 plushish
woke up at 5 go school
damn jialat sick in the morning
stupid fone batt flat
so whole day never use
pon chem/ ahem stomach flu
really
then pizza hut with lovlies
yanyan joined us later
love them to bit and pieces
homed with gloria
slacked homed
didn't know got tuttion okeh
rushed
and finshed 8 plush
nv bathe yet :x
gna buy cake for mummy
then bathe
then suprise her lor
buybye i love bunny

2009-07-06T12:21:00.003+08:00

baby yanyan and tisha's blog
gave me a fucking shock, maybe not really
but i was pissed with the way you put yourself up
c'mon please you wna a fucking patch, patch
im not against it totally
cause i know my love is like yours
somesort.
in clear cut

To: Lyzel
okah,
i really don't know what to say okeh
i am not angry with you patching up with khair
the fucking issues im fucked up is about
you broke my both baby's hearts ( yapzy and yanyan)
they trusted you and stood by you
and you give them this fucked up attitude?
the way you put up yourself
seriously disgust me
please go and change
and one thing i really want to know
i don't give up on you nor hate you
cause you somesort stood by me
when i had issues
and i don't have to heart
to repay my kindness
by disliking you
let me tell you something again
not that i don't approve your love
btw who the fuck am i to approve of it
just a another typical classmate
nothing more or less then that
perheaps change the way of upholding yourself
thats all i can say
congrats upon patching up (not scaratics)

To Khair:
eh you want to know something
i hate you because of your looks and by your blog.
you think funny eh
you cannot fucking hate person upon their looks/blog
if you want to continue doing that
then seriously i have to show you what a true identity
having a fucking nerd look dosen't mean he can't be a gangsta
having a fucking gangsta look dosen't mean he's not step.
c'mon what era are you in
judge people by their apperance
if you ever fucking judge my baby (liyan)
then i have to show you hell
i don't give a hoot over fighting with you
just keep your limits to yourself
remember something
i don't hate you or whatsoever
i just hate the way you use your fucking words
use your words wisely

2009-07-05T19:56:00.002+08:00

mind is clogged
heart is fragil
body is weak

guess this space over here
doesn't really convey the way im feeling

anw
out with yanyan to amk hub
cause she was feeling a down
by right i was suppose to find her
but you know my mama ground me -.-
she's gna regret man haha
so met at mrt platform
jalaned abit
deicided to eat @ andreson's
ate couple's fondue and yanyan had ice coffe milk shake
nicenice
had some talk too
then buy my ever waiting school shoe
send yanyan to mrt
went back to amk hub
saw candy(?)
then met liyana there
so coincident lor
go buy earing
then got this woman comment on my stocking
hehe told her where i bought and stuff
bused back with liyana
saw yogga parents
it freaking rain
and i want to go out and play
but i sick sick ):
and did i mention
i not coming school on tuesday and wednesay
cause of my ear and lbp
so its like 2 days extra holiday for me (:
aun't baby is coming on 8 july
my mum's birthday
haha like my mum's birhday prezzie
can't wait for his arival sia
excited

: airolg ot
yrros ma i
you uoy deyonna fi
uoy detcelgen ro
ti od ot naem t'ndid i
ybab yrros mi
uoy lliw em evigrof

2009-07-04T23:03:00.002+08:00

well spent day (:
breakfast @ macs
alone pathetic uh
haha then homed
facebook w bro
watch teevee
got prepared
go for y.
then go meet yanyan @ hougnag
slacked there awhile
fep-ed bought mummy a dress + ring
for her birthday
rushed home
nag-ed by mummy -.-
watching teevee
mum agreed buying me the shoe alrd
yipee (:

to baby yanyan :
cheer up hunneh
me luv you okeh
don't think too much
give one day allowance
before making any decision
rest well
take care
everything will happen for a cause
love you baby

2009-07-04T13:01:00.000+08:00

Today, I was completely wasted at my bachelor party, and my friends thought it would be funny to put sodium nitrate on my penis. Sodium nitrate makes your skin dark purple for a couple of weeks. My wedding is next week and my fiancee has never seen me naked. FML

2009-07-03T19:38:00.002+08:00

swear today was the day i laughed the most
with 2 hours of sleep
hehe right andrea
haha pranked eunice ho and pearl lee with the hand thing
expression was priceless should have video-ed it
but no didn't ):
actually wanted to prank that liang
but i scared i kna demerit points okay
i don't ant any anymore
so didn't
but chin yee showed her and scared the shit out of lyzel
twice le
haha

its so suprising im not sleepy
only had two hours of sleep
why cause i finshed my brother dnt stuff @ 2
went to macs find darren
talked damn alot for two solid hours
so sweet of him sent me back home
right stop at my house door
cause the scared go back home alone
brave boy
hehe
best part mum didn't notice me
in and out of the house
equals to more sneaking out
hehe
woke up 6 and go school
i luv fridays cause
first two is tamil
followed by
Live two periods
yumyum break
then all one periods
and 3 periods of a math
and did i tell you
that stupid veera called my mum
to ask her remind me that i got project dued on 10th
and complain i never hand in new paper article
aiyah whatever lah
no mood
maybe going chomp chomp later
anyone wna join me
text me hunnehs
adios back to doing shar blog

2009-07-02T22:42:00.002+08:00

never realised how
just a single loss
could affect so many people
we peole would never learn
unless something happens right infront of your eyes
prolly i jusy maybe talked to you once
but now youre gone
its saddening
i feel remorsful
even thou i don't know you/personally
thank you for teaching us a lesson a good one
rest in peace
for all i have
my deepest condolences
join her tribute in facebook
and leave a meomory down
even thou we may not be close be her
she part of the pl family
and still will be.

/update
have been spending my whole afternoon + evening
helping bro w dnt cause tmr dead line
damn black and white
to colourful y' know
haha so proud of myself
but still got alot to do
so might be staying up and finshing it
then deciding to hit macs and have a h2h talk
adios

2009-07-01T20:13:00.006+08:00

why, why must people die so young
omg what ever is problem don't choose death as a easier way out
cause its just gna hurt people arnd you much then you would expect
i don't know her and don't really know what happened
but there goes my deepest condolences
life's short
live it to the fullest
R.I.P girl

on a brighte note
i laughed alot in mac w shar
she damn gon gong
we did stupid things
after that
gloria went to serangoon north
tisha stayed in macs w her sisterz
me, li yan and shar too 113 to hougang
then i and li yan went macs
slacked and saw andres and santine
haha santine so desperate for old chang kee
met andrew at my hse there
homed 7.
sad sad
d.

2009-06-30T21:10:00.003+08:00

some blackie pissed me off (no offence even thou im one)
people actually think i hate them when i don't
additional mathematics tuttion was damn productive
im looking forward to tomorrow

1. i know before mj was dead no gave a fuck about it
after he is dead everyone's giving their sympathies t him.
not all are crcocodile tears bitch.
even if you hate him it doesn't give you any fucking right
hear that clear no fucking right to talk bad about him and
comment on his awesome singing.
like saying oh its too high or smth
like what shar say : trying singing and you would end up
sounding like a black crow like you ( okay i think its smth like that)
and you don't have to squint to see people
its gross when you do that
utterly gross.

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2. funny to actually know people think you hate them when you don't
its kinda akward when people from your class last time don't smile at
when they see you or give you they pathetic faces or dao faces
keep them in your ass okay -not pissed-
yea fine i wasn't close to them but close as a class mate
time changes you forget your friends or hate them cause their friends don't like you
and you find for new ones and get influenced
its plain weird.
i don't want to talk about this anymore cause it a heart ache

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3. guess what bala's back baby
and johnson's gone
cute boy(:
mum thinks i have a major ultra crush on him
but no i just feel good and happy talking about him
plain wierd
i actually understand whole of bionomial therom in 1 hour
when liang is bragging about it since before school actually ended
i didn't understand a single shit
good good i like like caue very productive (:
and i even finished half of the homework leh (:

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4. tomorrow is very looking forward day
cause its wednesday = medium short day
and i and shar are going national library--shisha
if nothing crops up lor
cross fingers
cause we always famous for smth cropping up at the last moment
hehe excited

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heart's still naive
any opinions
ahaha eng book review haven't done
and got eng tmr ):
lazy lah
scared that ho call mt mama ):
haiya badbad
im wearing my brothers shorts
w/o knowing it was his and he made a fucking fuss out of it
so i stripped it down infront of his eyes
i was wearing fbts inside lah
hahaha
im gna ask mum for more moohlah
buhbye

2009-06-29T18:58:00.001+08:00

just waxed finshed wuth mum
she so cute
bisha-ing now!
hehe buh bye

SECOND POST FOR THE DAY

2009-06-28T15:29:00.003+08:00

i only cleaned my wardrobe
fuck i feel so tired alrd
shit lah okay
i becoming weaker and weaker day by day
last only got fever once or twice or never a year
now like damn frequent
and my stomach is always feeling upset
by the time the ene call me
i can become deaf alrd okay
stupid take so long
i went on friday leh
today is sunday never issue my appointment
whatever lah

heart's so naive
i don't seem to move on
maybe faults on both of us
my heart looking
but never did it come
d, ouyevoli

2009-06-28T11:33:00.002+08:00

im not going to mj's tribute
actually to think what mum say was kinda reasonable uh

clean the dressing table
my wardrobe
finsh english and amath hw
pack bag for tmr

by 8 pm
i actually wanted to bake the rocky mountain
remember i made it when school reopened the starting of this year
with baked mashmallows the brownie awesome stuff
i have no time and mum is not really willing to give me money for that ):
8 hours of hard work everything should be okay lor
do you think i should put back my tagboard
comment in my livejournal if ur friend
or otherwise friendster okehs
luv all my school girls
mizz them worxzxz
suddenly thought about andrea
hahah don't know why
kinda drifted ):
luv cheng baby, yapzy,sharshar, yanyan baby, my bestf, gaga, fondaa
hehe fonda so cute
so call me in the morning and night
yesterday almost the same time
bottle pop!

2009-06-27T08:05:00.002+08:00

im fugging sick ):
stomach flu and dirrheo after visiting poly
damn it okay
kept vommiting hot hot bile from aftenoon
slept at 5.30pm
woke up at 9.30pm
call cheng to call me
talked till 11
had to keep down the phone
cause i need to puke ><
sorry hunneh
ko after that
mum came home 11.30 plus-ish
made raw tea for me
talked talked and drank it
ko at 12
woke up at 4
my bloody hip was damn pain
and ot funny feeling in my legs
irritating
ko and woke up by mum @ 6
brush teeth
and ate oats mum made for me
never puke that out
feeling abit better now
i don't wna go poly
cause i got high fever from yesterday till today morning
and prolly they would quarantine me in some place -.-
which i don't want
so im just resting at home
math and chem hw done
a math, bio, eng, lit, geo, tamil not done ):
wish i could be stronger
my friendster got like 10 people i don't know just added me yesterday
akward
buh bye
guess livejournal is rotting
no strenght to post there
till then adios

2009-06-25T20:12:00.002+08:00

2009-06-24T13:09:00.002+08:00

fuck i don't know how to do math
don't know why the hell im in o'level math band
and i offed my handphone
cause messaging is a distraction now days
don't know why can't be like last time
can don't touch phone for two full days
if anything call my house phone
if don't my number
that's your problem
hehe im happy cause of d
buh bye

2009-06-23T11:30:00.002+08:00

hai!
im veh beh sad to say
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lappy's gona go
away for two months
which means limited acess to internet
cause the desktop is fugging slow ):
and i forgot ho to use the mouse -.-
and the reason why its going on a vacation for two months w/o me
is cause my aunt needs it for her teaching course
mainly because of its mobility
good thing for me also lah
i can be less distracted
and mug 12/6 on hw
twelve hours a day for six days
to do
AWESOME HOLIDAY HOMEWORK
i haven't touch a single piece yet
so its gna be a challenge for me

and please click the ad at the top left hand side collum
most importantly the charmanie's one
she has cancer
go to their web page and choose to donate
so poor thing lor
such a younge age of 4 got cancer
and still have to suffer so much
you can choose to give her a second life
so be wise and donate!

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Tribulation

2009-06-22T18:19:00.003+08:00

prolly now im gna change my
goals of my life
aspects of my life

make everyone happy by within my means
not to trouble/irritate anyone
not to get into any trouble
not to dissapoint my mommy anymore
stop smk/drk/drg
apologise to everyone i fought even though its not my fault
change the impression of teachers on me
im gonna promise myself to study till the day i live
meet almost everyone i know
and lastly shopping

i am happy srsly
not sad,dissapointed
not regretting
cause ain't by my means
come on guys don't be sad for me
rejoice okeh
luv you glolia,yapzy,sharshar,baby yanyan

2009-06-22T13:41:00.001+08:00

wanted to update you guys
but too bad
mum's asking me to help me do her homwork
so kewt okay the way she says
this proves im a smart smart kid wor
buh bye

2009-06-19T18:33:00.003+08:00

do want to know how scared im feeling
tomorrow will determine everything
like past, i can't hope for the best
its difficult
my pillar of strength is crashing down
prolly its too late to look back
but what did i do

i feel fucking fatique
and for no reason my nails are breaking
how ):
fate is nearing
karma is really coming back for me
im so useless

2009-06-18T23:12:00.003+08:00

fucked up life ><

monthly bestfriend came and gave torture
my ear kana block again
haven't touched a single piece of hw fyi : 3 week alrd
some lifeless bitch is pissing me off

i have got blood cancer

i don't know
pissed
don't know what to do
don't ask me anything
cause im not even able control myself
life's short ):

2009-06-16T20:29:00.003+08:00

yoh
back from chalet alrd
5 freaking dyas gone down the drain
nothing fun or exiciting
most of the time stonning the time away
i have reliased many things from the chalet
who to trust and not
who would be there for me or not
who would bitch right to my face and not
who geniunely loves/likes me or not

everyone wears a mask
it depends how well you hide behind it

fyi: im not pin pointing anyone
if you want to get go ahead

haven't heard from
beautiful boys yet
sad ): angry ><
dissopinted :|
i don't know why the hell
okay should stop ranting alrd
buh bye
its SHAR baby's birthday tmr ._.

2009-06-12T11:20:00.001+08:00

heyheho! (:
chalet for four days!
stay tuned for pictures
cause im bringin my lappy there (:
adios(:

2009-06-08T19:59:00.003+08:00

things aren't going on well
i really hate it when it happens
and i only get to enjoy for a short term

i feel stupid lazy and heckcare attitude
cause i haven't done any of my hw
and told mum i wanted to change over a new leaf
i keep telling her this
and prove for awhile only
and she always is giving me chance
makes me think how much she trusts me
i get pissed with her for the smallest issues
but expect her to forgive me all the time
seems all selfish uh
i don't want to continue this
she's not doing well in her bussiness life either
and here i am scraping every single cent from her
i feel mean
confirm i am going to burn in hell ):
i don't know how to become a good girl
its hard
especially when you have been really a bad one
and influences are consistent
acedamically
i haven't acheived much

primary 5 - all a's
primary 6 - agg 199
would you expect a A student to get below 200
i did cause of maple
quitted long long ago

sec 1 - second over all
sec 2- first over all
sec 3- eleventh in class
if i have failed just two subjects
i would have failed over all percentage
would you expect a potential a's student to land to 11th position
cause i was having too much fun with not really good friends
during sec 2 nov,dec holidays and t1 and t2
which resulted in lose interest in studies

i really don't know whats wrong with me
i know i got potential
yet i am not using it wisely
i not proud at all
just ashamed
i don't want to slog my carrer life
i guess somethings i typed would really go into my brain
cause im not taking to easier way out

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it has been like only 1 week and 4 days of holidays
it some how feels wrong
not seeing yapzy, sharzy and 3d3 and sophia,fonda,raghini and ahpeh,vivian,vania and vhengzx
i have meeting gloia pwncess and yanyan
but still miss them okay
not like you get to see familar faces on a everyday basis
my beautiful guys aren't out yet
missing them too
my fault lah okay
i accept it

dear sharshar,
me miss you so much
cannot be calculated like that okay
i miss the times of
lulu-ness
dancing back of ng during pe
like only really have known you for 6 months
you are like one of the peron i can trust in the god damn earth
tell you almost everything
yapzy you also lah okay
guess its not gna be the same in t3
cause we have fullyconcentrate in studies
i am worried for you, your future
i know what your mama does is for your best
but she hates us now
its okay all parents like that
undertstadable
hehe you see i understand you
want to talke talk more
see see more
and touch touch more
your bun backside is so loved (:
i don't know what else to write
like a essay alrd
i tell you better love
cause i love (:

dear beautiful guys,
i don't know what to say okay
i am sorry for eveything
basically everything
even thou i did nothing
i fell guilty
i don't know why
hope you understand me like you always do

dear spammer,
you get your bloddy facts before
talking shit here
i did not steal anyone's bf okay
and my friends don't suck cause
they ain't fucking childish like you
to spam other people's blogs
with the shit load of free time to spare
got alot of time
go play mahjong
not with me
hope my words go into your tweeny weeny brain

ps : i think this is like my longest wordy post

2009-06-07T21:42:00.002+08:00

yoz
removed cbox cause of some reasons
i fucking don't get it when
people judge me by others' opinion
which really sucks okeh
no life go play mahjong
play with me for what
knn ><
no mood
byebye

2009-06-05T23:51:00.003+08:00

bloddy unglam

painting nails hehe ^^

she gave me that

yoz back home like 10.30 +
went to school to return report book
and unexpectatedly saw gaga and pig le
damn coninceidence lah
return report book
only yapzy and i return report book from 3d3 le
my class the best hor
luv them
then went to find for sarah in the library
gaga and pig's idea
at that point i ws thinking it was some
kuku teacher like regina
laughs
but it was some retarded girl from 2-4
went down to find pig
she was cleaning her locker
waste so much of her mother money lah please
got so many books unsed and bought twice
haha she donated some to sarah
i wrote a love note to her
like some idiot okay
took photos in gaga's fone
upload when i get them okay
then met chengzy at serangoon macs
then walked towards the blocks
then we sat on the bridge and start painting our nails
like damn retarded lah please
hehe but wa funfunfun
i want to go picnic soom
anyone?

i think
it was a good idead i went out
if not would be thinking about problems again
and sobbing like some kid ):
i don't like to cry
make me so emotional type

if you don't know what is happening
dont kpo
if i want to tell you then i will tell
don't be all so primary school-ish
and feel we are drifting if i don't tell my problems to you
if you know me well
you would know i am the private type
so kindly scram!

i want to meet shar
how?
sad sad

i got y festival tmr
whole day taken le
ccb ><
don't like my saturdays
to be burned just like that
will post interestingly (hopefully) on sunday

did you notice i started wearing hairband
cause i feel i fringe is screwed
which is better
with fringe or without
tag the answers okay
and click the ads
luv ya

traitor

2009-06-05T10:51:00.003+08:00

i don't want to hide anymore
i didn't know what to do
i was scared
naive like a small kid
i am scared
for you all
i don't know what to do
i can't concentrate on anything
i wish i could be there
when you all would need some one
to rant your feelings
cause you all were the ones
who were there for me
when i need a shoulder to lean and cry on
i feel guilty
i feel confused
don't let me go
i love you guys
i don't want anything
to happen as serious as c's
sorry for leaving you all like that
i had no choice and was selfish
and you all were the greatest
much for regrets now

/editted/
i can't help myself
who will help me
no one
except for them
they know me too well
now they are gone
i felt as if i lost one of my limb

anyone heard of tisha
i haven't seen her for one week
i miss you yapzy
book me for a date okay
i luv you

i luv and miss shar too
and gloria chengzy
gna give her a surprise visit worsxz
to make myself happy
bye i wna meet gillian toox
and yanyan baby

2009-06-04T14:07:00.005+08:00

who is this chiobu sia?

hehe still can't guess its

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its yanyan
hehe so cute right
i know im gna kna for this
luv you yanyan
no more happy gas
for you alrd i tell you

holland village pictures with bro -ho - ho
prolly will get today i think
i really wish that person will return my elmo wallet
only one week old le
i miss my mp3 player ):
no point cursing
cause its my fault
and if i were i person i also would have tooken it
on a brighter note
i am happy i didn't loose my handphone
hoping for the best
the bloody police pos near my hse is close okay
and mum is not giving money for my transport to teach me a lesson
and gives me money only for school based activites ):
guess have to decompose my body at home
byebye
i go eat what my grandma cook at home
im sick and think gna get sore throat
stupid weather _|_

2009-06-04T14:05:00.000+08:00

hehe wach this while i updat with pictures(:

2009-06-03T22:35:00.002+08:00

yo- ho ho ho

TUESDAY
math and science funtasia!
damn tiring and boring lor
wanted to meet rain and cheng
but needed to go have dinner with mummy
so plans cancelled
home-ed
quick bathe
and out

WEDNESDAY
went to bpss to collect mid year exam slip for cousin
cause he sent to boarding school alrd
his parents busy
so help lah
out to bugis to help bro change his shirt
cuase his o'level veh near so help lah
head to pungol yanyan hse
stone about an hour
till yan make up and get ready
met tatjna downsatir
walked pp awhile
wait till uncle come fetch me
went for y practices
i got 3rd leh
hehe without preparing
cool eh
bus-ed back home

i feel so sad
i want laughing gas too
naughty yanyan had it all for herself
i lost my wallet
yes the cute elmo one
w my preetiest ez-link card
- pass usage for a month
- 5 bucks
50 bucks ( emergency money)
my creative mp3 player
damn suay lor
lost at 110 D staircase
lucky had 1 buck in my bag
so don't need people to depend on people to fetch me home
crashed home like 10
damn tired okay
update pictures and cbox replies tmr
i like update tmr then always nv lor
but i will okay
stay tuned

2009-06-01T09:54:00.002+08:00

i post when im done bathing
anw GOOD LUCK SOPHIA FOR YOUR MATCH
and GOOD LUCK BROTHERS FOR YOUR MOTHER TOUNGE O'LEVELS

/editted/

yoz circle lin-ed w gloria in the afternoon
then bishan-ed
bought cute ties for adhi
then headed to punggol
helped yanyan and gloria dye their hairs
gloria also helped
then i zhao
these clever people only applied it for
20min and 10 respectively
then how can they colour come
haha gonna help yanyan again
after i zhao
i went to adhi hse
to give himthe tie
and takaopachi and cookies as farewell gift
cause he won't be able to eat them there
dinner at thai express @ bishan
crashed home 10.30 with slight headache
managed to get a glimpse of IT
like 3 min only -.-
bathe and wanted sleep
bro was having insomia
talked to him till 11.45
and then koxz
mum prolly came home at 12 i think
anw gna meet lyzel for lunch now
buh byes
math and science funtasia prep.

2009-05-30T13:32:00.002+08:00

helloz(:
went for sefood yesterday
teeheehee
bought a t-shirt before heading there
slacked in the hse awhile
then went for seafood dinner
i was acting all stupid
and spilling ice lemon tea
on my bloddy forehead ;x
after seafood went to slack at the hse again
crashed home at 11.30
i really like tisha's love note to SK
haha serve you right bitch
karma will bite you
prolly in your stuck out butt.
enjoy ur lonerism okay
got y competition today
nv practice okay
confirm fail
and mum will be upset cause of that
kuku lah she
who wants to go circle line with me tmr
text me or call me aites
byebye

2009-05-29T17:54:00.002+08:00

yoz!
bowen-ed
to acc mum to see bro's teacher
saw edwin there
the fighting spiders' soon lee lah
best okay he
he never go school for 1 month= 4 weeks = 30 days
shiok right
i also want
but next term if his attendence not good
suspension again lor
bus-ed 70/45 to school
whent to meet liang
saw shar mum
mum talked to liang and stuff
liang never did complain
i am hapy for that ^^
went to go meet mr ng eng kee
bastard lah he
don't want to sign my nyaa booklet
cause lack of info
not his fault really
so yea heck care him
talked to shar's mum
met mum downstair
poor thing a she
she wait for like 45 mins
hehe siao
then bus-ed 62/132
back home
during the journey
had heart to heart talk
confessed i ______
yea she didn't scold
my mum was really damn undertstanding
still got conflicts in the family
but btw me and durka
no more
i gave in thats why
prolly ging for seafood later
mum confirm will allow i think
so long nv see favourite faces seh
and prolly also seeing shar's mum on mon with yapzy and cheng worxz
life's not really that bad as i thought
adios
gona bathe again
you know the weather
haha ya
adios people

2009-05-29T12:59:00.002+08:00

yoz,
i don't but its akward not talking to you alrd
its like since young we have been talking talking ang talking non stop about things
and now
its like nv talk with long pauses and stares and heart aches
i wish we could be the same old cousin all over again
paritially falut is me
my fault for not being concer to ask what happen to your leg and stuff
and holding grudge till now
since that incident
makes me feel so stupid fighting with you
no matter how your character might be
cousins will be one who you can gurentee
to stay with you till the end
im sorry
hope we can forget all the things hapened in the past
and forgive and forget
i still love
btw the persom taging in ur blog
by the name of 'pra'
is not me
adios till the day we meet

2009-05-28T19:52:00.003+08:00

i miss shar
whatever the verdict would be
i am seriously hoping for the better
talked to shar mum in the afternoon
what she said actually was true
it felt like what my mum would say
it refelcted on how we have been fooling around lately
we did studied but it was kinda last minute

time to change people
i am gonna give my real best for T3 and EOY exams
and proof to
the idiots who study to beat people's score
and ______ ( fill in the perfect/appropriate description)teachers
and mum

mum is realy poor thing
i hope she won't really stress herself
somemore during holidays
i guess its gonna be havoc for her

grandmum is coming today
yes today
5 months of not seeing her
i kinda miss her
wonder how she really looks like
hehe

PTM tmr
i know liang won't give bad remarks to my mum
so im kind relived
but im scared for gloria, tisha, shar, liyan and lyzel
hope for the best uh

im gna coach yanyan during the holidays
cheng also accompanying
tisha most prolly yes lah
hope shar can come
so we can have fun whle we study too

saw my primary school bestfriend
she's damn fucking skinny
like anoroxic
she was like about plum as me during primary school
and now like stick like that
swear haha
jealous ehs *_*

yanyan is my darling(:
and i love her so much
as much as shar + gloria + tisha

2009-05-27T22:00:00.002+08:00

vivian heng don't wory
cheer up
i don't even know the whole story
its okay
smile smile okay
luv you god damn so much okay
need my love okay alrd lah okay

sharanya don't worrt
cheer up
i don't evn know whats going on
im scared to call ur hse
hope things would turn out better tmr
i love you
and no matter what
we can still be lulu friends okay
luv you god damn so much

2009-05-27T19:30:00.002+08:00

today sucked balls
i hate it
why everything i love/adore/like must go away
fmylife(!)

teachers are ment to be nice and caring and understanding
but now when we thought they were okay
their true identies are exposed
i don't why im attending this school
want to know something
it a piece of shit
want to give me demerit points for destorying its image
i wouldn't mind
cause its really a piece of shit
and wouldn't mind getting my ass out of this school
causwe it ain't any better then any
cause you all look down on NA student
don't deny okay
you al know it yourself
go and cherish your express student
but let me tell you something
they ain't any better (no offence)

siveeta do you want to know something
you can stop acting alrd
saving your ass
and getting others in real pain
teaches me a lesson
never give a two faced bitch a second chance
you want to find me talk to e personally
can no problem
but just tear the mask away cause we all knew your true identity
im gna rant more in livejournal
after i bathe
cause i just came home and typed this whole shit out
cause i never did felt this pissed in god damn life
bye.

2009-05-26T21:14:00.001+08:00

posted @ livejournal
revive with pictures tmr aites
byebye

2009-05-25T20:48:00.007+08:00

25 May 09, 20:35
SOPHIA!: praz, you okay? Rest well! dont fall sicK:)
PRAMILA: yepz honxzxz. thanks for your concern (:

25 May 09, 16:36
Tisha: Yapzy <3>

Tisha: Not posting livejournal already? STAY HERE! Dont go
PRAMILA: hehe posting there too but i don't too much of private life eh
haha okay will here and there MILAZY <3>

23 May 09, 17:47
Eiko: hey babe! i'll link you asap. meanwhile, post that you luv me. oh c'mon! lol
PRAMILA: hehe okay pehpeh POSTED! on sunday post ehs :D

22 May 09, 22:42
Gillian: OMG YOU SUCK! hshahahhaha

22 May 09, 20:11
Gillian: Ha you link me first lah ;P
PRAMILA: haha you sucker for ungalms ehs
haha linked (:

20 May 09, 18:52
Tisha: Grief?

PRAMILA: yea some certain sucky issues):

16 May 09, 21:25
Raghini: Ya, we must go out soon!(:
PRAMILA: yepxzxz book me out worxz :D

16 May 09, 16:30
SOPHIA!: BE HAPPPPPY K:)
PRAMILA: alrightxz will try (:

16 May 09, 10:00
SHAR: heyah secret society memeber ^^, dont stress. luv you.
PRAMILA: hehe secret shhh don't tell people haha will try(:

15 May 09, 21:11
Lyzel: HEY PRACKS! don't sound all so depressed & upset k? LOVE YOU, & i'll be here for you to share your problems! lovessss.
PRAMILA: yoz(: will try. thanks for the concern

13 May 09, 22:19
ANDREA: HI HI HEHEHEHEHE
PRAMILA: hello andrea wnedrea mendrea laughs ._.

13 May 09, 19:19
Tisha: Pork pork
PRAMILA: you pork chop lah ><

1 May 09, 23:28
SOPHIACHENG.: Yyay.helllo lalala!:)))
PRAMILA: hello chengy (:

28 Apr 09, 16:38
fonda: awwww, pramila so sweet. i love you too! we'll never neglect you. we'll always be there for you come what may!
PRAMILA: hehe thanks i luv you too (: thanks for the being

15 Apr 09, 18:38
Grace: HELLO XD
PRAMILA: yoz (:

9 Apr 09, 23:36
Lyzel: relinkkkk!
PRAMILA: will soon! (:

23 Mar 09, 21:56
durka: oh my mama
PRAMILA: that was my expression too ><.

21 Mar 09, 13:37
Tosha: Whats with your blog manzxz! HAhahaa
PRAMILA: haha my mama and brother lah ): ><

20 Mar 09, 11:54
raynachee: hi hi hi hiiiii do you want to go CCA with me? as in for real. like really go and not dont go in the end?
PRAMILA: yoz yes yes! haha till now we haven't gone yet together ):

19 Mar 09, 21:35
Asvini: Woah Im forgotten. Lols.
PRAMILA: laughs you ain't you're my cousin for goodness sake

19 Mar 09, 10:43
Tosha: Sorry promilo:( Happy okay?
PRAMILA: no probxz tosha okay will try

18 Mar 09, 22:18
Joanne: PRAMILA!!relinked already (:
PRAMILA: xiexie ni joanne dalrz(:

18 Mar 09, 14:36
Tosha: CAN YOU FOR GOODNESS SAKE REPLY ME! Msn also dont talk, tag also dont reply. wahlao!

18 Mar 09, 11:58
Tosha: Situation of what? Promilo, cheer up :'(
PRAMILA: sorry ): will try yapzy

17 Mar 09, 20:17
SOPHIA!: animals**

17 Mar 09, 20:17
SOPHIA!: go seee anumals(:
PRAMILA: yes yes please jio me out during holidays (:
*screams excitedly*

17 Mar 09, 17:43
Lyzel: linked
PRAMILA: thanks hunneh(:

17 Mar 09, 15:17
Tisha: Byebye

17 Mar 09, 15:17
Tisha:

17 Mar 09, 15:16
Tisha: TSK!

17 Mar 09, 15:16
Tisha: Tsk.
PRAMILA: haha cute cute sorry ):

17 Mar 09, 10:40
Durka: HAHAHAHAH i found ur blog HOOHOHO ok bye
PRAMILA: O.O haha okay bye(:

14 Mar 09, 17:33
Tisha: I know you dont know how to share with me, but dont sad okay?

14 Mar 09, 17:33
Tisha: Pramila are you okay? overdose again issit? :'( dont sad already..
PRAMILA: no lah idiot hehe yep you got it rightz. will try (:

2009-05-24T20:56:00.003+08:00

yoexz
hehe bugis-ed today
wait for shae at bugis mrt station
went to eat pasta mania
gloria came
haji lan-ed and arab street-ed
while waiting for yanyan the princess and yapzy and siv
yanyan the princess woke up only at about 12.30
and yapzy and siv were late cause yapzy had to eat lunch with her mother then meet siv
and siv was half an hour late
hehe next time don't out with them alrd with shar along haha
kidding luhs
national library-ed
then popular-ed
mac-ed
then finnaly suitable place
mos-burger-ed to do project
i just relised in bugis
the places like library, popular an macs
are much muc bigger then the usual ones
i so gong until now then know
after a while at around 5.15
me and siv sent off shar at mrt station
later gloria kena dragged out by her mother ><
finish project kinda of
jalan jalan abit
bought same head band as yanyan
and siv bought earings
then the four of us mrt -ed
then i and yanyan seperated to serangoon
*unpleasant stuff*
cheer up yanyan
bus back to amk
yanyan probably went to meet her family i think

the bloody fainting symtoms came back
when in amk interchange
lucku dear g was there
help me out
go macs make me sit
and help me buy food
acc me till i rest on the table while
and sent me home
cute ehs

my bloody fainting stuff doesn't come
not because i don't eat
cause i usually got eat that day
im not like some aneroxic freak okay
i don't even know why it comes
and people always stuff food when im like that
don't wna tell mum
only makes her more worried ):
i also think she facing some problem ah
don't wna be a burden to her luhs
gna just study hard and play hard

adios lah
pictures tmr
stay tuned (:

CLAUDIA IS SO DAMN LOVED
hehe happy?(:

2009-05-22T21:43:00.005+08:00

chio bus uh

hehe lazy to arrange pictures in oder

btw pictures were for yesterday

macs-ed with tisha gloria shar and siv

gillian and liyan came afterawhile

then siv left

clarrissa came

tasmin came

went to accompany shar to bust stop w gloria

then gillian and liyn left after a while

left clarissa tasmin gloria and me

heartland-ed

then i gloria and i bus back home earlier

reached 7 plus ):

on laptop doze off

mum stil not at home

12 wtf she doing outside also i don't know ):

sometimes i feel i shouldn't leave even single oppurtunity out

to regret later

but it always happen like that

i hate it

i hate i can't go flea tmr

beause of mum

adios lah

no mood

2009-05-20T17:51:00.002+08:00

i cried rivers cause i never felt such a grief in my life
it was worst than loosing
a bestfriend or (-).

2009-05-19T20:24:00.002+08:00

yozy
hehe i have been playing rc
like mad
now gna lvl 11
hehe like almost our whole class playing
mac-ed w tisha
waited for gloria for three hours
end late so we went back
sorry cheng
we wrote tissue letters and letter to cheng
tisha got to see icandy
and clarissa came
yep mum was helping me in rc
i have got a good mummeh eh
hehe wna watch movie sia
okeh la i go do the birthday list
till then adios

2009-05-17T00:27:00.002+08:00

yozy
crashed home like 10pm
suppose to go shenton way/bugis arnd there
plans cancelled
so watch uninvited with mum and bro
not scary but story linewsa good
i don't know why these days the scary movies aren't really scary
gna dig up old scary movies to burn the night
hehe^^
wna join me uh
i can't wait to go for tgss
im broke
i need to
make up an esclipse to gillian
buy clothes
eat yummy food
buy makeup(mine's finshing real soon)
god let it rain money in my room please (:
tyvm
good nightxzx people

2009-05-16T12:23:00.002+08:00

got my ass out of hse yesterday
like finnaly
walau i didn't know where was singpost
when i was living in ang mo kio for 15 blooody long years
as in i forgot
cause so long nv go
got g to follow me
so sweet uh
then go ______
made a quick return
went adhi hse
he so cute okay
amk central-ed/amkhub-ed
to find for soursoup ice kachang @ 10
craved for it
all shop closed ><
no choice go macs eat macflurry
retruned home 11-12

morning
rc-ed
and chatted with
yapzy, princess and cutie pie
hehe happy
then go watch v
now i have bathe and go for y
need t get into competition team
guess its gonna be hard
cause need to tell the benefits and demo
wah ):

i wan go out with
princess and cow and pervert real soon
and yogga and sharmini (: (primary school friends)
they called me out
hope mum allows ):
till then adioszx

2009-05-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

three major issues is killing me now.
so let me R.I.P
tyvm

2009-05-15T09:11:00.002+08:00

yoz.
yesterday caught by mr yeo
while in the sickbay (more in livejournal)

overall i think my mum
is gone nuts
serious and swear (recent issue)
but getting better
i wish i wouldn't fight with her anymore

family issue kills me
probably just because one person told you all something
you believe that person
and assume that i think i don't need you all
please go and bang ur head on the wall
listen to my side of the story
and determine
accept me the way i am
i am not like 100% bad okay
neither do i have a
piercing, tatto or dress procative
just a bad attitude
which can be changed and working on it
i felt hurt that you all ignored me
wtf is wrong with you all
seriuosly you all can
push me aside like the s family okay

they still are a part of our family
and despite whatever we cannot push them aside
parents showing very good example to kids uh
i don't know lah
i wish i would not be able to come to any gatherings
to avoid your judgement about me
it okay to judge about me
but the ignorance hurts
and pisses me the most
and i realised i cannot rely on you all
cause you all hate me so bad
and only allow to follow
to your family gathering
because of my mum
i no need sympathy
just push me aside
i would be so glad
and i also know that
anything i do
wouldn't change
your haterated towards me
thank you being with me
and showing me on
how a wonderful family you all could be
i am never coming back.
bye.

2009-05-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

Tisha was here :D